Monday, March 23, 2009

This is Simplicity?

In an attempt to simplify my life, I think I have filled it far fuller than before. I am working less than I once was, but now I have -- literally -- stacks of magazines and books left unread, personal writing projects that are unwritten, cross stitch projects that are untackled and artwork that has been left unpainted. And that doesn't even take into account all of the cleaning I want to do and yet somehow never get to. In the midst of this, I am left to wonder when I thought I would have time for it all.

What's even more intriguing is how I got it all done when I was working 70-plus hours a week. Of course, I now have far more time to think and consider the work I am doing and appreciate the little things in life. Still, it's interesting to know what takes priority when your life shifts courses. Work can expand and contract to fill our days, but what else we fit in around the edges defines who we really are.

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

Literary Fear Mongering

I really have to wonder about some of the reading materials available out there. During a recent trip to the bookstore, I found a slim paperback book titled "Wash Your Hands! Dirty Truth About Germs, Viruses and Epidemics." Since I have a fairly sick fascination with all things viral, I picked it up. What I didn't realize was the book was little more than a roadmap to turn even the most level-headed American into a hypochondriac. The description on the back of the book reads, in part:

"Did you know the brown spots on apples are carcinogenic? That gardening can lead to Legionnaire's disease? That a a toothbrush can pass on the hepatitis virus, or than an improperly cared-for cavity can endanger the heart? These health risks -- the very real results of diminished attention to personal hygiene, especially hand washing -- crop up in every part of life. ... From allergies to the possibility of an avian flu pandemic, Dr. Frederick Saldmann examines in detail the many dangers that may lie in wait and sets out simple measures for keeping them at safe distance -- his number one mandate being washing your hands as often and as thoroughly as possible."

Hmmmm ... really? It's our inattention to personal hygiene that has caused this? I am to believe that we are dirtier now than at, say, around the Civil War, when baths were taken once a month? And as for the brown spots on apples being carcinogenic ... well, that's a stretch, in my opinion. Brown spots are rot often caused by mold or fungus. Although not particularly toxic, studies have indicated that one of the main forms of this rot could be a genotoxic, which has led people to speculate that it is a carcinogen. Animal studies have been inconclusive.

That's my long way of saying that I think this book represents fear mongering at its worst. Yet you know someone is going to buy this and believe it. And then we are going to have another hypochondriac on our hands.

Help us all.

Friday, March 13, 2009

Appreciating the Little Bills ...

When I originally left Oregon 16 years ago, I was looking for something bigger and wider and brighter than where I had lived my entire life. So, I moved to Southern California, in search of my own golden dreams.

What I didn't know was just how much gold those dreams would consume in their own right. As I bounced from Victorville (it's near Barstow ... you're thinking of Vacaville, which is in Northern California) to San Bernardino to Wilmington, Del., to Los Angeles to Los Angeles to Los Angeles (yes, three different L.A. areas over the years) to San Diego to San Francisco, it took more and more money just to survive. And I'm not talking cost-of-living increases. These were genuine differences in what it cost to live in each of these communities. My rent decreased only once in all of those moves -- when I left Los Angeles for San Diego. Of course, the 9 percent savings I found there were completely blown away by the 26.5 percent rent hike I took when I moved to San Francisco.

Upon returning to Oregon, I knew that my world view would change. Trees would no longer by dwarfed by buildings. Mom-&-Pop shops would be far more inviting than chain stores. Wide open spaces would hold greater value than urban sprawl. And bills would be lower.

I didn't really know how much lower until I received my electric bill. Having lived in Southern California for several years, I will admit that I am prone to keeping the heat high in my apartment. So, when I opened the bill, I expected it to be a little excessive.

It was $46.

I paused momentarily, thinking about how I used to pay $100 a month for electricity in the winter months in San Diego and $150 or more for gas and electricity in San Francisco during the same time frame. By comparison, $46 was a downright bargain.

Then I realized that $24 of that was the fee to set up my new service. My actual bill for electricity was $22.

This has definitely been a change for the better -- mentally, physically, emotionally and now financially. It may seem ridiculous, but it's true: my cost of living now is what my rent used to be in San Francisco. Isn't it great?

Monday, March 9, 2009

My Closet Runneth Over

25 percent of clothes in women's closets never leave the hanger.

Why? Because they don't fit.

This was an interesting fact to find after spending the weekend contemplating my own closet. They say that, in general, we wear only 20 percent of the clothes we own. I think that's actually being generous. Even after purging dozens and dozens of shoes and shirts and skirts and pants over the past year, I still find myself with much more than I ever wear. Does one person really need more than 15 sweaters? Even if I wore them every day, I will still have two full weeks of sweaters at my disposal. Seems excessive.

Now, I am not one to advocate wearing the same outfit day in and day out. Gilligan's Island my life is not. Nor am I the type to push for a wardrobe made up of only five pants, five shirts and five pairs of socks. There is always the need for that special outfit that you pull out only for the holidays or a party. For a polished suit that looks great in a job interview or a meeting. But, does a woman really need 10 different pairs of black pumps?

The reality is that the need for things has gotten so bad that it has impacted every part of our lives. We have to pay more for bigger houses to hold more things. And when we fill our houses, we rent storage lockers, which often come on 10 different sizes that are able to accommodate everything from the measly mess-maker to the perfected pack-rat.

That said, even though I know the pitfalls of consumption, I would still probably buy another pair of black pumps if they were the exact color I needed and they made me feel as though I were walking on pillows all day. After all, I may be trying to live simply, but I am still a woman.

Sunday, March 8, 2009

Splendor of the Mountain

There's a spot as you head east out of McMinnville on Highway 18 where the treeline dips just enough to catch a glimpse of majestic Mt. Jefferson on the horizon. The glacier-blanketed peak seems to be permanently bathed in a sunset-pink hue that beckons to distant travelers.

Mt. Hood may be the symbol of Oregon, but its 10,497-tall brother has become the symbol of my freedom. When the clouds part and I see the mountain, I am filled with an overwhelming sense of peace. It's like nature is reminding me of my ability to find space, room to breathe. It may have taken me 38 years to get to this point, but I am incredibly grateful to have the opportunity to experience it.

Photos taken of Mt. Jefferson as I was driving out of McMinnville:


Highway 18 is in the foreground. Mt. Jefferson is in the distance.


A better picture of the mountain. It's a little crooked, but I was driving when I took it. :)

When you see this picture, consider that the mountain is more than 120 miles from the eastern edge of McMinnville. If I was to drive to the mountain, I would log about 154 miles on my car.

Other facts:

-- Mount Jefferson was named for Pres. Thomas Jefferson by the Lewis and Clark Expedition
-- The expedition first saw the peak in March 1806 from the mouth of the Willamette River
-- Because of its remoteness, few geology studies have been completed on the mountain
-- It is a stratovolcano -- a tall, conical volcano with many layers of hardened lava, tephra and ash
-- Researchers speculate that the mountain may be extinct, but it has awoken after long periods of inactivity at least twice before

Focus for the Year

After two interesting months -- January living with my family and February spent moving and unpacking -- I have decided that the year ahead needs to be focused on finding sanity in my life. While certain pressures have decreased significantly in my life, others haver persisted. Mainly, I believe, because I have allowed them to. After all, how do I live without worry? How do I continue without stress? How do I say no to friends when their requests don't make my heart sing?

So, for the next year, I am going to try to chronicle my work toward this end. Finding sanity. Remembering to love the little things in life. Taking time to breathe.

Thursday, January 1, 2009

New Resolution

I made a new New Year's resolution unlike any I have ever made before. As with most people, my previous resolutions have always focused on the standard fare -- lose weight, save more money, reduce my debt. These will still be overall goals of mine for the coming year, but none of them really struck me as the reason for living this coming year.

Instead, as I contemplated the year, only one resolution came to mind: Pursue happiness.

So, this year is dedicated to the pursuit of happiness. Who will join me?